I know, I know. You might say, "Oh that's nothing...I do this and that. Don't talk to me about busy." and I get that. But I recently am finding I have no time to do the things I usually do. I have no time to go to the gym, no time to work on my career development (resume/cover letter), no time to do homework, no time to Facebook or blog, no time to check ESPN, and no time to sleep. And I love sleep. I need at least 8-9 hours. Yeah, I'm pretty weak. I've just feel fatigued and exhausted throughout the day.
Yes, if I managed my time well, I would be able to do all these things, but this weekend I did NOTHING in terms of studying for school. And we all know those books we have to read and those assignments get piled up and eventually have to get done if we choose not to do them. Ugh, this is going to be a busy week.
But I also find I have no time to read the Bible, let alone communicate with God at a sincere level.
Sure, I pray to God, but it all feels rushed. Everything feels rushed in my life. Even as I am writing this post, I'm desperately trying to get this all over with. I'm pretty much feeling burdened and stressed out, thinking of the upcoming things I have to do, saying, "Ah crap, I have to finish that assignment or read that book." I've had hateful thoughts towards things and people who are wasting my time because for some reason, my biggest pet-peeve is unnecessarily wasting time.
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| It feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders sometimes. |
But is this what God wants? I don't think so. In Matthew 11:28-30, Jesus says:
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
I know this is easier said than done...but I don't think I even tried to stop and really commit to surrendering everything that's on my plate to God. For me, God wants me to let it go and let Him do the work.
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| Sorry...I couldn't resist. |
I mean, He sent His one and only Son who took all the burdens of mankind. I would think He'd know what it's like to be in our situation but multiplied by a million. It's like He's telling me: "I got you." There's a story my high school teacher told me of how people hunted monkeys in the wild. They'd place a jar with a treat inside and a monkey would come and put its hand inside to get it. But no matter how hard they tried, they could not take it out. They could only take their hand out without the treat. But monkeys would be too stubborn to let the treat go, and they'd end up getting caught. Hope that made sense.
So I guess if there's one thing to do, it appears it's the one answer to all our problems: Trusting in Him.
I just need to surrender everything and let Him do His thing. I mean, God is infinitely more powerful, wiser, and loving than we are. We know this, yet it feels like we don't feel it or believe it sometimes.
He has dominion over all the earth. He controls the tides of life. And I need to trust that even though things are overwhelming right now, this is all going to be ultimately overcome through God, for God is with us. PTL
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